Sam's Christening

Sam's christening last July 25, 2009 in San Nicolas Parish. Thank you Siops for the wonderful pictures...

Children Are Amazing

When I come across people who tells how good looking they are, I wud sometimes kid na 'sino nagsabi, nanay mo?' I'ts a joke that I used to not really understand. But now that Im a mom, I do. When sophie came I was overwhelmed by the thought that she actually came from me (by God's grace, of course). That I actually nurtured her from the womb and I was part of making her become such a beautiful, healthy baby. I would spend many waking hours just staring at her as she sleeps ( I still do, actually). And now with Sam, it's the same. I would scoop him towards me in the middle of the night (as I do now while writing this entry) and just stare at this wonderful creature of a gift. They're the most beautiful creatures I've ever seen. Well, kasi nga ako ang nanay nila. Children are amazing, and what's more amazing is the impact they have in our lives. I have always wondered -how can someone I just came face to face with for the 1st time be so meaningful, so precious to me? How can i commit to someone for life (and beyond) and offer unconditional love when i just met him 3 months ago? Children are amazing and so is the nature of love.

rantings

this morning we brought our yaya to the bus station because she needs to go home to her family. so now were left with just one househelp and we need to look for another one. this yaya search is starting to become taxing. it's starting to take a toll on me emotionally. sometimes i think of quitting work na lng and dedicate my time on my kids.
i'm a working mom but i have always been a hands-on mom when im with my kids. during weekends i make sure that i personally attend to them. every morning i feed and bathe both of them before i go to work, it's my bonding time with the kids. if only i have a choice, i want to personally take care f my kids. beng a full time housewife is no joke but i'd rather do that than go through these yaya woes over and over again.
but then again...
have you ever experienced being on a crossroad? you have two ways to go - left or right - but the thing is you have no choice but to take left only because turning right is not an option. road to the right exists but it's not passable...so even if it's the way you need to take to get to the end, you have no choice but to take the longer, more complicated and uncertain left road. the complications of adult life...

another day, another problem

This morning my yaya of almost 6 months confirmed that she needs to go home to her parents to take care of some family issues. Although a few days ago I already had an inkling about her dilemma from our labandera/cook but my yaya confirmed everything just this morning and that she needs to go home tomorrow (talk about 2 weeks notice :( ) . So now I will be left with just my cook to temporarily look after sophie and sam until we're able to find replacement. Haay. Bakit nga ba hindi matapos-tapos ang problema? Especially with house help, I feel like its one step forward and two steps back. No matter how much you try to be as tolerable and nice with them they will still leave you eventually. They never run out of family problems, conflicts in life.

What a morning. Then on the way to work, the cab we took had defective aircon and it was so hot and suffocating. My husband and I were already late so we did not bother to get another cab. And then there's the blockbuster pila in the elevator (we call it blockbuster kasi pang-blockbuster movie ang haba ng pila).

Another day, another problem. ..It just never ends. Now I have to look for another yaya, better start looking soon.

Although come to think of it, problems are as temporary as life. Nothing is permanent in this world, even the worst of woes. So I know that someday somehow, all this yaya issues will be of no problem anymore. Ang tanong lang eh, kelan kaya? I hope soon...

day 2 as blogger. i decided to finally give blogging a shot. somehow it's exciting to be doing something new... i was used to writing my thoughts on pen and paper, i guess i get a different high when i scribble those words. and then there are times when i dont have words for those emotions i just sketch and draw...
blogging seems kinda exciting at some level. hope i can keep up with this new hobby...

Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

willy wonka has always been my fave movie even as a kid. The soundtrack is great, the moral of the story really touches the heart n soul. Its the kind of movie the is timeless and universal. But what makes me love the movie more is that i was able to watch it when i little together with my mama and siblings. In our household, its very rare that all of us 4 kids watch a movie together til the end. We tend to have diff tastes in shows to watch, even cartoons. But this one movie, we watched til the end.
Sometimes, its not the object perse that makes it memorable, valuable but the xperience that goes with it. For me, willy wonka becomes a fave bec the experience in watching it was unforgettable. It brings back wonderful memories :)

Would like to start my blog with this article I've saved in my phone for sometime now:

During the World Forum at Davos the winner of the Nobel Prize for Peace, Shimon Peres, told the following story.
A Rabbi gathered together his students and asked the : how do we know the exact moment when night ends and day begins?
When it's light enough to tell sheep from a dog' said on boy
another student said:'no, when it s light enough to tell an olive tree from a fig tree.
No, thats not a good definition either.'
well what's the answer? Asked the boys.
And the rabbi said:
when the stranger approaches and we think he is our brother, and all conflicts disappears, that is the moment when night ends and day begins.'


Part of my work as producer is to keep all elements of project as flawless as possible and to accomplish a project without any hassles, incident report or conflicts in the end (you bet it's not so easy a task but someone's got to do it). Part of my work also is to make sure that everyone works with much gusto and inspiration and that everyone is still friends in the end despite the differences in opinions and outlook. Trust me when I say, when you're surrounded with great artists, the concept of right and wrong is sometimes irrelevant.