rantings

this morning we brought our yaya to the bus station because she needs to go home to her family. so now were left with just one househelp and we need to look for another one. this yaya search is starting to become taxing. it's starting to take a toll on me emotionally. sometimes i think of quitting work na lng and dedicate my time on my kids.
i'm a working mom but i have always been a hands-on mom when im with my kids. during weekends i make sure that i personally attend to them. every morning i feed and bathe both of them before i go to work, it's my bonding time with the kids. if only i have a choice, i want to personally take care f my kids. beng a full time housewife is no joke but i'd rather do that than go through these yaya woes over and over again.
but then again...
have you ever experienced being on a crossroad? you have two ways to go - left or right - but the thing is you have no choice but to take left only because turning right is not an option. road to the right exists but it's not passable...so even if it's the way you need to take to get to the end, you have no choice but to take the longer, more complicated and uncertain left road. the complications of adult life...